Let's conclude that you are not the only one who occasionally feels more than horrible. And that you are also not the only one who sometimes thinks about it leaving this world altogether. But let me see also that you are unique by defenition. And therefor don't always fit in categories. Of course I don't know you yet. But what I can tell you now is that I have been trained in methods (described below) that have been developed to protect you from the therapist. What am I saying there? Yes, exactly, to protect you from the therapist. Therapists are people who have often experienced 'a few things' themselves. Sometimes they are ... aware of that, sometimes not. In the latter case, they often try to heal themselves through their clients. With some difficult words, that's called projective identification. Other thing therapists sometimes do is something Freud called countertransference. Meaning something like they act exactly as you have already experienced all your life. These things are not always that beneficial for your healing process. Certainly not if you have a traumatic background. You might have confusion enough without someone adding to it with the best intentions. But it sometimes happens and it is very sad. That is why I like to work on on equal hights. I do not possess the truth about you, do I. Instead, I will ask you questions and make suggestions. I will interrupt you now and then. I will slow you down to explore what is happening for you. Of course, all of that only with your approval. I will also regularly check this with you. You are not at my mercy once you made a appointment. Rather the opposite. And should I ever say the wrong things, just tell me. This is how you learn to distinguish between the sensible and the nonsensible.
This method is based on the reaction of the nervous system and your body to events in your life. You learn in somatic experiencing sessions to tolerate and hold experiences better. To not freak out if something happens. That can be quite useful. It is a body-focused form of therapy, where you learn to better perceive what is happening in your body. This makes it easier for you to regulate yourself. This form of therapy was developed by Dr. Peter Levine. I was certified as a Somatic Experiencing Practioner (SEP) in 2015
NARM stands for Neuro Affective Relational Model. It's a methode for healing developmental trauma by dr. Larry Heller. So for when your first 5 to 7 years were not the best. This methodes it relational based, as well as somatic as psychological. The idea is that your system has a selfhealing capacity which will evolve when what is in the way of it is explored and broken down. I did both the normal training and the advanced NARM training. The last one being more focussed on psychiatric diagnoses. But I don't care to much what stickers you've got. I work with you as another human being. Í'm curious about your experiences, the believes that you gathered. What works for you and what not. What you want for yourself. I have finished NARM training in 2016. I'm still in the process of qualifying for the NARM advanced training.
Trauma is quite a big word. Developmental trauma. (complex)Post-Traumatic-Stress-Disorder, (c)PTSD. Emotional trauma. Traumatic past. Traumatic attachement. Not fun at all. Living with trauma is often a hell. No matter how hard you try. Fights, fears, depression, dissocation , not able to function. Many thing you try to hide from others, but that bother you. Or maybe all kinds of somatic symptoms. Some did a lot of therapy, which might or might not have helped. Some were to scared for that but can't keep up any longer. Some have no choiche anymore if they want to stay alive. Trauma isn't just a big word, it has many big consequenses. These consequences are the defining the trauma.